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Post by mislaidLullaby on Jun 28, 2012 12:51:48 GMT -5
She definitely knows now not to meddle with these sorts of things. Just a bout of the tamer form for the Silent Treatment.
As for my other friend- It's a cross session thing. There is nothing I can do for him except for emotional support and reassurance that his physical change doesn't mean that mentally he's somebody else. I don't think that's giving him any comfort.
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Post by apianAnchorite on Jun 28, 2012 12:54:48 GMT -5
Haha, I will pretty much always take hugs. And I don't mind riddles either--I don't think tT was serious about the mage thing up there. I just.Yesterday I went up three levels of my echeladder. I'm higher than anyone but our heir right now (and, I mean. Heir of Flow. Freaking, no one's beating that, sorry). When my prince pulled the last...what are they called? The giant-ass imps that fight like bosses? When she pulled it, I was actually happy. I was all SHOWING OFF. When it was over, I turned around to look at her and her face was completely blank, like she was looking at a stranger, and I realized what I was so freaking PROUD of doing and just. I think I threw up everything I have ever in my life eaten. I couldn't even curl up with her that night, I just went and sat in one of her trees keeping watch. I have never wanted to be able to sleep for real so badly. It sounds so childish, saying that this isn't what I wanted. I mean, what part of any of this is something ANY of us wanted? But just. I didn't want to become... this. You know?
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Post by musicalDecay on Jun 28, 2012 13:25:48 GMT -5
D: D: D: D: D; *Gives you the biggest hug in the world while thinking how cruel this game is to you* I give you my hugs, all of them. common, we are going to the feelings pile and we will have the most heart felt discussion since the session that glitched and created 5 heart players at once. That's how much feelings is going to go into this shit. When we are done you will feel so much better and happy that all the enemy's in the game will die from the happiness rainbows spewing from you. That's how it's going to go down, and so help me if you are still sad after that. I will bribe a space and time player so I can rip through the space time continuum to punch the creator of this game in the face.
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Post by apianAnchorite on Jun 28, 2012 13:43:17 GMT -5
@md...are you messing with me? You're not a troll, right? I mean, I don't think the game is any more cruel to me than it is to anyone. :/ Not that the creator doesn't probably deserve to be punched in the face, at least a little bit, but... And, I mean. I'm not sad, really, so much as just. Tired, I guess. And a little disgusted with myself and really confused still, even though people have tried to explain it to me and everyone seems to think this whole killing thing is super self-explanatory as-is. So, I mean. I don't know. I t's fine.@ml That is super lame that she would knowingly do that to you. I hope she deals with whatever is upsetting her so much in a better way than just making the people around her unhappy too. And I'm just, really really sorry about your other friend. I cant say I know what he's going through, or have any kind of advice, but I'll keep healing thoughts for him, for what its worth. The game is bad enough without other things to make you feel worse.
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Post by musicalDecay on Jun 28, 2012 15:10:45 GMT -5
@aa: I learnt about piles from trolls. sorry about the confusion. It's just this one troll was my morail or something and she introduced me to piles. I kind of got addictive to the thing as a hole when she alcemized a bunch of really soft pillows. The pile sessions with her were one of the things I really looked forward in that session. I just find it helps a lot when I'm helping people and when I'm sad. sorry about the confusion. Also, I tend to over react when people are sad. bad experience with one of my friends were I didn't do much about it, I really fear that there may be a repeat of that sometimes. I just wish you the best, okay?
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Post by apianAnchorite on Jun 28, 2012 19:35:16 GMT -5
Oh, not at all. I was just worrying. It's come to my attention that there may be...erm, cultural differences in expectations, I guess. And I wouldn't want to set people up for an awkward situation because I wasn't paying attention, is all. I'm sorry for worrying you, and am super happy you'd think so kindly of me. And, um. I don't want to pry about what happened with your friend, but. I'm really sorry something like that happened. And if you wanted to talk, I'm around, yeah? I 'm happy to cuddle and eat ice-cream whenever.
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Post by musicalDecay on Jun 28, 2012 22:41:32 GMT -5
okay, I guess. *Sits down on pile of pillows made for this situation" The friend was someone from my first session up Intel my third session. Me and him were really close. We were nearly inseparable for the first two sessions. But then during are third session he was starting to get really emotionally distressed. I saw lots of signs and tried to help him but in the end we got into a big fight because he thought I was over reacting and that he didn't need my help. I left him alone for a long time after that and he just kept getting worse and worse while I just didn't do anything about it. None of are co-players tried to help because I knew him so well and me and my friend even told them that we would be fine with are own emotional problems. It got to the point were I knew that he really needed help so I tried to send a player over his way but by then they were all to busy to help at that time for at least a week. By the time I finally decided that enough was enough it was to late. *sniff* I-I... I found him later on his world, h-he ran dead center into one of those kill zones and pulled every single monster towards him. Oh god, he wasn't even recognizable. If It w-w-wasn't for the fact that he had the pendant in his hand... oh god I'm so sorry, I'm so so so sorry. I could of saved you, I should have helped you and now you're dead and gone and you aren't ever coming back and it's all my fault and and... (sobbing) I'm so fucking sorry.
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Post by whiteLimestone on Jun 28, 2012 23:07:01 GMT -5
*hands MD a fuzzy pillow to cry into*
It's not your fault. He rejected your help, right?
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Post by stanzicApparati on Jun 29, 2012 2:22:11 GMT -5
[RAngoon wArning]
*hUgs mD aWkwardly*
I aM sO sOrry. LOsing a mOirail iS nEver eAsy. I aM sUre tHat yOu mAde eVery eFfort yOu cOuld tO hElp tHem, eVen iF yOu fEel yOu cOuld hAve dOne mOre.
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Post by musicalDecay on Jun 29, 2012 7:38:25 GMT -5
*Hugs sA while crying on the pillow from wL* I just want to go back and help him so much but I can't! I messed up and got into a fight with h-him and now he's gone. *hugs pillow tight to chest* He's gone and now the only thing that I c-c-can do is help other people so it doesn't happen again. oh god I just don't want it to happen again. please don't let it happen again.....please......
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Post by apianAnchorite on Jun 29, 2012 11:42:09 GMT -5
Oh Md. *hugs* Shhh, you're going to be ok, alright? That sounds so awful! Not being able to help your friend, and having something awful like that happen, it's perfectly normal and okay to be upset. But, you know, even if you were close like that, he didn't give up his personal responsibility--he could have reached out to you or anyone at any time, and instead he CHOSE to do what he did. I'm not trying to blame him or anything, obviously he was hurting and confused, but just. It's not all your fault either. You cared about this person so much, and did everything he'd let you do to help him, and that makes you a really GOOD friend. You can't tell me differently. If you want to help people now in memory of your friend, I think that's a very kind impulse. Just. Also try to remember that you aren't personally responsible for the happiness and well-being of everyone you meet now, okay? Even I can tell, already, that in a game like Sburb that's asking for madness and misery.Ice cream and cuddles. For sure. *pets*
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Post by musicalDecay on Jun 29, 2012 12:01:23 GMT -5
*gives aA a really big hug* thanks aA. It means a lot. He was a really good friend and I'll always miss him. But I guess I just can't save everyone. Still, thanks so much for helping me. *sits down on pile and starts eating a bowl of ice cream.
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