AA vs the World [private chat logs]

[alcoholicAnomaly]

19:22 specificNihilism you
19:22 specificNihilism you are nothing
19:22 alcoholicAnomaly ha
19:22 specificNihilism but a little child
19:22 specificNihilism crying
19:22 specificNihilism for attention
19:23 alcoholicAnomaly you wish i was a child crying for attention
19:23 alcoholicAnomaly that's what keeps you up at night
19:23 alcoholicAnomaly isn't it
19:23 specificNihilism what are you even trying to say?
19:23 specificNihilism you're a murderer
19:23 specificNihilism and lonely
19:23 specificNihilism and you don't know how to deal with it
19:23 alcoholicAnomaly i wouldn't say lonely
19:23 alcoholicAnomaly actually i'm not really lonely at all
19:23 alcoholicAnomaly and honestly murder
19:23 alcoholicAnomaly more like
19:23 alcoholicAnomaly taking out trash or
19:23 alcoholicAnomaly doing a chore
19:24 specificNihilism they're not trash!
19:24 specificNihilism they're people
19:24 specificNihilism they're living
19:24 specificNihilism they have dreams
19:24 specificNihilism and hopes
19:24 specificNihilism and plans
19:24 specificNihilism and people who love them
19:24 specificNihilism and they love others
19:24 alcoholicAnomaly
19:24 alcoholicAnomaly that
19:24 alcoholicAnomaly is so sweet sn
19:26 alcoholicAnomaly oh by the way
19:26 alcoholicAnomaly i have a gift for you
19:26 alcoholicAnomaly from my last session
19:26 alcoholicAnomaly IMAGE
19:26 alcoholicAnomaly been waiting to show you that for a while
19:27 specificNihilism asdf
19:27 specificNihilism you
19:27 specificNihilism you
19:27 specificNihilism spenih can't even
19:27 specificNihilism s en h can't e en
19:27 specificNihilism th re are n word
19:27 specificNihilism what have you done
19:27 specificNihilism why would you do that
19:27 specificNihilism why would you do that?
19:27 alcoholicAnomaly don't you like it
19:27 alcoholicAnomaly i think it's a nice picture
19:28 specificNihilism no
19:28 specificNihilism nonono
19:28 specificNihilism shut up
19:28 specificNihilism nbo
19:28 specificNihilism no
19:28 specificNihilism it's
19:28 specificNihilism terrible
19:28 specificNihilism horrible
19:28 specificNihilism how could you?
19:28 specificNihilism how
19:28 specificNihilism could
19:28 specificNihilism you?
19:28 alcoholicAnomaly hahahahaha
19:28 alcoholicAnomaly aren't you funny
19:28 alcoholicAnomaly can't handle it
19:28 alcoholicAnomaly can't handle knowing that she died
19:28 alcoholicAnomaly man she was so young too
19:28 alcoholicAnomaly only... oh 7 sweeps
19:29 specificNihilism why would you do something like that?
19:29 specificNihilism how could you?
19:29 specificNihilism how?
19:30 alcoholicAnomaly it was easy
19:30 alcoholicAnomaly i just chopped her head off
19:30 alcoholicAnomaly that's how
19:30 specificNihilism you
19:30 specificNihilism are
19:30 specificNihilism a monster
19:30 alcoholicAnomaly ohhhhh i wouldn't say a monster
19:30 alcoholicAnomaly although i'm sure you are going to forever think of me that way
19:31 specificNihilism she can't think of you as anything else
19:32 alcoholicAnomaly of course you can't
19:32 alcoholicAnomaly god did you know teal is such a pretty color
19:32 alcoholicAnomaly she was so damn full of teal it was fucking great
19:32 specificNihilism shut up
19:32 specificNihilism don't
19:32 specificNihilism just
19:32 specificNihilism don't
19:33 alcoholicAnomaly don't what
19:34 specificNihilism don't
19:34 specificNihilism talk about her like that
19:34 specificNihilism that's not
19:34 specificNihilism it isn't
19:34 alcoholicAnomaly oh but did you even really know her
19:34 alcoholicAnomaly no
19:34 specificNihilism shut up
19:34 alcoholicAnomaly she's a nobody
19:34 alcoholicAnomaly she was a nobody
19:34 alcoholicAnomaly and still is a nobody in death
19:34 specificNihilism she's somebody!
19:34 specificNihilism she was a person!
19:34 alcoholicAnomaly literally she has no body now
19:34 specificNihilism she was scared
19:34 specificNihilism and hoped for better
19:34 specificNihilism and
19:34 alcoholicAnomaly everyone is scared SN
19:34 specificNihilism oh [sk ia]
19:35 alcoholicAnomaly haha
19:35 alcoholicAnomaly i could get you more pictures of her if you wish to 'remember' her
19:35 specificNihilism shut up
19:36 alcoholicAnomaly naaaah
19:36 alcoholicAnomaly
19:36 alcoholicAnomaly i'm quite fond of not shutting up
19:36 specificNihilism shut up
19:36 specificNihilism just
19:36 specificNihilism shut up
19:36 specificNihilism don'
19:36 specificNihilism don't
19:37 alcoholicAnomaly don't do what
19:37 alcoholicAnomaly show you more
19:37 alcoholicAnomaly talk about her
19:37 alcoholicAnomaly don't do what SN?
19:37 alcoholicAnomaly huh
19:37 specificNihilism shut up
19:37 specificNihilism don't talk about her
19:37 alcoholicAnomaly oh but
19:37 alcoholicAnomaly buh spenih
19:37 alcoholicAnomaly isn't that what you like to call yourself
19:37 alcoholicAnomaly right?
19:37 alcoholicAnomaly haha
19:37 alcoholicAnomaly i'll talk about her all i want
19:38 specificNihilism no
19:38 specificNihilism spenih will just
19:38 specificNihilism she'll just
19:38 alcoholicAnomaly she was tiny too
19:38 alcoholicAnomaly just a little wriggler really
19:38 specificNihilism no
19:38 specificNihilism don't
19:38 specificNihilism please
19:38 specificNihilism just stop
19:38 alcoholicAnomaly played a game
19:38 alcoholicAnomaly but we all learn someday that nothing is really a /game/ now is it
19:38 specificNihilism shut up
19:39 alcoholicAnomaly nope
19:39 alcoholicAnomaly nope nope nope
19:39 alcoholicAnomaly she looked so shocked when she saw me there
19:39 alcoholicAnomaly never expected it
19:39 alcoholicAnomaly but i could see in her eyes
19:39 alcoholicAnomaly she fucking accepted her death
19:39 alcoholicAnomaly before she even was dead
19:39 specificNihilism shut up
19:40 specificNihilism shut up shut up shut up
19:40 alcoholicAnomaly girl didn't even have fully colored irises
19:40 alcoholicAnomaly still mostly gray
19:40 alcoholicAnomaly god damn did i mention she was young
19:41 specificNihilism shut up
19:42 alcoholicAnomaly it was sad
19:42 alcoholicAnomaly she was so cute
19:42 specificNihilism stop
19:42 alcoholicAnomaly just a little pretty young thing
19:42 specificNihilism stop stop stop
19:43 alcoholicAnomaly halberds are so good for decapitation
19:43 alcoholicAnomaly did you know that
19:43 specificNihilism no
19:43 specificNihilism no no no
19:43 specificNihilism nonono
19:43 alcoholicAnomaly oh but yes
19:44 alcoholicAnomaly it only took one swing
19:44 specificNihilism stop
19:44 alcoholicAnomaly i have some impressive strength
19:44 specificNihilism stop
19:44 alcoholicAnomaly i would if i could
19:44 alcoholicAnomaly can't stop
19:44 alcoholicAnomaly won't stop
19:45 specificNihilism no
19:45 specificNihilism stop it
19:45 specificNihilism stopstopstop


[likely IC only certain people will ever see this. THIS IS POSTED SO SN CAN SHOW OTHERS. try not to respond. Imagine this is an OOC POST PLEASE.]

[ventricularPipefitter]

[Ross was PM'd the contents of this log.]

specificNihilism sent you a file: "alcano_log.txt"

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PM from ventricularPipefitter [VP] to specificNihilism [SN]

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Skye, don't give her the satisfaction of your pain. She won't stop. She'll just hide her crimes from you, reveal them later I know that's the hardest thing in the world to say, but you've got too, if you can.

And if you can't.

If you can't.

Well.

I know what she looks like. I know what the monster looks like. She can't hide from me now.

And if she keeps tormenting you, I have to know. It could help me find her. It's worth the cost, to me.

But don't feel as you must! I don't think this is worth the cost to you.

All the hugs and happy memories in Paradox Space,

Ross

[specificNihilism]

19:04 pickledMermaid eehay
19:05 specificNihilism what do you want?
19:05 pickledMermaid just wanedt ed to tell you
19:05 pickledMermaid that you are too ncie
19:05 pickledMermaid whyyy
19:05 specificNihilism because
19:05 specificNihilism unlike you
19:06 specificNihilism spenih actually cares about the lives of people around her
19:06 specificNihilism and isn't morally bankrupt
19:07 pickledMermaid thatsta not fiar why are you sooo pferefct
19:08 specificNihilism sarcasm not appreciated
19:08 pickledMermaid evben if you are proably a horraterer and things
19:08 specificNihilism spenih
19:08 specificNihilism is not
19:08 specificNihilism one of them
19:08 pickledMermaid ohhhhh god
19:08 pickledMermaid good
19:08 pickledMermaid haha
19:08 pickledMermaid :3
19:10 pickledMermaid buut i can't hlep you r reaaaly pefffcr c
19:10 specificNihilism this isn't going to get you unbanned
19:10 pickledMermaid buttt whyy notta?
19:10 specificNihilism you've done too much to those spenih cares about
19:11 specificNihilism and you cause too much trouble
19:11 specificNihilism she can't let you hurt anyone else
19:11 pickledMermaid i donta wannan ahrut no one elses ewither but i dont ahvde no choice soemtimes
19:12 specificNihilism no choice?
19:12 specificNihilism tell that to acclyc
19:12 specificNihilism or the other people you've hurt
19:12 pickledMermaid sheee coudln't kill me
19:12 pickledMermaid haddt o ckill her
19:12 specificNihilism no
19:12 specificNihilism you didn't
19:12 specificNihilism you didn't have to cause the things that made her want to kill you
19:13 pickledMermaid nooo noea ficghts me
19:13 pickledMermaid cant help it
19:13 specificNihilism you can't help it
19:13 specificNihilism right
19:14 specificNihilism spenih believes that
19:14 pickledMermaid i knwo you don'ta but it sjust happnes
19:14 specificNihilism nothing 'just happens'
19:14 pickledMermaid cnata hep meyself
19:14 specificNihilism right
19:14 specificNihilism right
19:14 specificNihilism you can't help being a terrible person
19:15 specificNihilism spenih hopes you enjoy being lonely and unhappy
19:15 specificNihilism because that's what you keep doing to yourself
19:15 pickledMermaid yosua nct get clse to hanyone in this game
19:15 specificNihilism yes
19:15 specificNihilism you can
19:16 specificNihilism but you obviously never learned that
19:16 pickledMermaid eberayone dies
19:16 pickledMermaid fffucck gota things to ddo can dcnat talk now
19:16 pickledMermaid bye
19:16 specificNihilism just go already
19:16 pickledMermaid sorry

[ballisticSpectacle]

00:39 ballisticSpectacle AA. Tell you what.
00:39 ballisticSpectacle You can vent at me.
00:40 ballisticSpectacle Tell me why you're so angry.
00:40 pickledMermaid i don't feel the need to say anything to you
00:40 pickledMermaid i don't have to and i sure as hell have nothing you want to hear
00:40 ballisticSpectacle I think it'd be good for you.
00:41 pickledMermaid so what you're going to march up and expect me to let you pity on me or something
00:41 pickledMermaid ha
00:41 pickledMermaid ha
00:41 ballisticSpectacle No.
00:41 ballisticSpectacle I just want to listen.
00:41 ballisticSpectacle Isn't that what you were wanting?
00:41 ballisticSpectacle Someone to listen to you?
00:41 pickledMermaid no
00:41 pickledMermaid i don't need anyone to fucking listen
00:41 pickledMermaid what i say doesn't matter anyways
00:41 ballisticSpectacle Oh, AA.
00:41 ballisticSpectacle Of course what you say matters.
00:42 ballisticSpectacle It's just, you're so angry at everyone, you think they don't want to listen to you.
00:42 ballisticSpectacle We give you chances, AA.
00:42 ballisticSpectacle We really do.
00:42 ballisticSpectacle So, come on now.
00:42 ballisticSpectacle Tell me what's bothering you?
00:42 pickledMermaid there is never anything bothering me
00:43 ballisticSpectacle You don't need to lie, AA.
00:43 pickledMermaid i'm a fucking wall of solidarity i dun need your damn sentitment
00:43 ballisticSpectacle Hries.
00:43 ballisticSpectacle Are you drinking?
00:43 pickledMermaid don't you dare use my name
00:43 ballisticSpectacle Why not?
00:43 pickledMermaid no one has a right to even know my name
00:43 ballisticSpectacle You can use mine.
00:43 ballisticSpectacle Call me Mike.
00:44 pickledMermaid who the fuck even foun' out who the hell i was
00:44 pickledMermaid names dun mean anythin' now
00:44 ballisticSpectacle And why don't they?
00:45 pickledMermaid y'all die
00:45 ballisticSpectacle Well... yes.
00:45 ballisticSpectacle People die.
00:45 ballisticSpectacle That's what they do.
00:45 ballisticSpectacle But that's not all they do.
00:45 pickledMermaid pfft
00:46 ballisticSpectacle They also help hold us up when we're at our highest.
00:46 ballisticSpectacle They pick us up when we're at our lowest.
00:46 pickledMermaid i dun need that anymore
00:46 pickledMermaid 'm bove that
00:46 ballisticSpectacle Sorry, Heries.
00:46 ballisticSpectacle No one ever is.
00:46 ballisticSpectacle Everyone affects and is affected by everyone else.
00:47 ballisticSpectacle Even in the tiniest of ways.
00:47 pickledMermaid no
00:48 ballisticSpectacle Now, then.
00:48 ballisticSpectacle Why don't we start at the beginning.
00:48 ballisticSpectacle Why don't you tell me about your first session?
00:48 pickledMermaid no
00:48 ballisticSpectacle Okay. We don't have to talk about that if you don't want to.
00:49 ballisticSpectacle How about your feelings towards SN. Do you want to talk to me about that?
00:49 pickledMermaid why dun you talk 'bout yur furst session
00:49 ballisticSpectacle Okay. We can do that.
00:49 pickledMermaid you talk ima sit here
00:50 ballisticSpectacle I had found out about this new game coming out, Sburb. A friend of mine managed to grab four entries into the game proper.
00:50 ballisticSpectacle So it was myself, my best friend, my English friend, and the final one was... gvien away to someone I think.
00:51 ballisticSpectacle We didn't have enough people, so we handed out the final key at a forum.
00:52 ballisticSpectacle So we all wntered the session. My friends were the Maid of Space and the Knight of Doom.
00:52 ballisticSpectacle The person we didn't know ended up as the Seer of Time.
00:53 ballisticSpectacle Well, the seer gave us a bunch of FAQs to read, to make sure that "we knew what we were doing".
00:53 ballisticSpectacle Which lead me to this forum, actually.
00:53 ballisticSpectacle Anyway, since the seer class was supposed to be the tactician, she gave out plans and we followed them.
00:54 ballisticSpectacle And... apparently she'd been doing other stuff behind the scenes, because eventually she turned PM into a Doublewraith.
00:54 ballisticSpectacle It was... horrible. The devestation...
00:54 ballisticSpectacle ...I never told you my class, did I?
00:54 ballisticSpectacle I was the Waste of Breath.
00:55 ballisticSpectacle It turns out that our Seer was a speedrunner.
00:55 pickledMermaid i wus a grace
00:55 pickledMermaid my last session
00:55 ballisticSpectacle It's hard being a Cataclysm, isn't it?
00:55 pickledMermaid i killed them
00:55 ballisticSpectacle ...Anyway. The plan was hatched.
00:55 pickledMermaid most of them
00:56 ballisticSpectacle I... know the feeling.
00:56 ballisticSpectacle The Knight fought PM head-on.
00:56 ballisticSpectacle The Maid aimed and strengthened my attack.
00:56 ballisticSpectacle And I was to launch the killing blow.
00:56 ballisticSpectacle ...And I did.
00:56 ballisticSpectacle Both the Knight and the Seer died to that atttack.
00:57 ballisticSpectacle It took out the doublewratih, but my two best friends were.... are dead.
00:57 ballisticSpectacle I talked to the seer about it...
00:57 ballisticSpectacle Her response was
00:57 ballisticSpectacle "what do you care? we won! this has gotta be teh fastest session ever played!"
00:58 pickledMermaid ha
00:58 ballisticSpectacle She seemed.... seems to suffer under the delusion that the faster you play, the more likely you are to escape the game.
00:58 ballisticSpectacle But.... I was the one who launched the attack.
00:58 ballisticSpectacle I'm the hands their blood is on.
00:58 ballisticSpectacle ....I have to live with that.
00:59 ballisticSpectacle But... I live on.
00:59 ballisticSpectacle I honor their memories.
00:59 ballisticSpectacle They wouldn't want me to no nothing but mourn them
01:00 pickledMermaid you only killed two people
01:00 ballisticSpectacle They were the two most important people in my life.
01:00 pickledMermaid do you want to know how many i've ended
01:00 ballisticSpectacle ...No.
01:00 ballisticSpectacle It doesn't really matter, in the end.
01:01 ballisticSpectacle Tell me, PM.
01:01 ballisticSpectacle The people you're missing... The people who are gone...
01:01 ballisticSpectacle Would they want you to carry on like this?
01:02 pickledMermaid why does it matter they're dead
01:02 ballisticSpectacle Their bodies are dead.
01:02 ballisticSpectacle I buried mine on thier lands before I left the session.
01:02 ballisticSpectacle But they live on.
01:02 ballisticSpectacle Inside our hearts and minds.
01:03 ballisticSpectacle That's how it goes.
01:03 ballisticSpectacle We may only be together for a reletively short moment, but our memories live on forever.
01:04 pickledMermaid they died i lived they don't matter anymore
01:04 ballisticSpectacle What we do to...for others lives on beyond ourselves.
01:04 ballisticSpectacle We affect other people.
01:04 ballisticSpectacle Those others affect other people of their own.
01:05 ballisticSpectacle Even ind eath, we can't help but affect others.
01:05 pickledMermaid i should be dead too
01:05 ballisticSpectacle Why?
01:05 ballisticSpectacle Why should you die?
01:06 ballisticSpectacle No one "should" die.
01:06 pickledMermaid ima supposed to be dead too
01:06 ballisticSpectacle ...But you're not.
01:06 ballisticSpectacle You have to live on to carry the memories of the others with you.
01:07 ballisticSpectacle Come on, now. What would your first players think of what you're doing? What would they say to you if they could see you now?
01:07 pickledMermaid mkyall would be so mad
01:08 pickledMermaid but
01:08 pickledMermaid really why does it matter what a dead man thinks
01:08 ballisticSpectacle They're still your friends, heries.
01:08 ballisticSpectacle And, if you'd like...
01:09 ballisticSpectacle I'll be your friend, too.
01:09 pickledMermaid i don't need friends
01:09 ballisticSpectacle I disagree, but I'll leave it be for now.
01:10 pickledMermaid you're entitled to your opinion
01:10 ballisticSpectacle But Heries, please remember...
01:10 ballisticSpectacle Weither you like it or not, there's still people that care about what happens to you.
01:11 ballisticSpectacle Now, then. How about a drink?
01:11 pickledMermaid there is no one who cares anymore
01:11 pickledMermaid var probably doesn't care and he's sessions away
01:12 ballisticSpectacle That's not true.
01:12 ballisticSpectacle I care.
01:12 ballisticSpectacle Even with all that you've done..
01:12 ballisticSpectacle If you died tomorrow, I'd still greve your passing.
01:12 pickledMermaid ha
01:12 pickledMermaid that's funny
01:12 pickledMermaid was it supposed to hurt?
01:12 pickledMermaid because i'm not affected by sarcasm
01:13 ballisticSpectacle I'm not being sarcastic, Heries.
01:14 ballisticSpectacle No matter what happens, you gotta remember.
01:14 ballisticSpectacle There's people who care about what you do.
01:14 ballisticSpectacle There's people that care about *you*.
01:14 pickledMermaid i don't see why anyone cares about what i do or me
01:14 pickledMermaid the fact that anyone pities me still blows my mind
01:14 pickledMermaid var is crazy, for sure
01:15 ballisticSpectacle Hell, everyone's crazy.
01:15 ballisticSpectacle Just some of us are better at hiding it.
01:16 pickledMermaid yeah well my scars all came from the one who pities me right now
01:16 pickledMermaid fucking
01:16 pickledMermaid var is just the only thing i have
01:16 ballisticSpectacle He doesn't have to be.
01:17 pickledMermaid i didn't need him
01:17 ballisticSpectacle You just gotta let people in.
01:17 pickledMermaid hell he scarred my face up
01:17 ballisticSpectacle There's more people out there, Heries.
01:17 pickledMermaid i'm covered in scars from his pity
01:17 pickledMermaid not for long
01:17 ballisticSpectacle Doesn't sound much like pity, human, OR troll.
01:18 pickledMermaid it is pity
01:18 pickledMermaid he didn't chop me up
01:19 ballisticSpectacle So, someone covers you in scars, and you say he pitied you because he didn't kill you?
01:19 pickledMermaid ha ha he pities me because he knows i'm broken
01:19 pickledMermaid i'm broken broken broken
01:19 pickledMermaid and i'm the one who broke myself
01:19 ballisticSpectacle Well then.
01:19 ballisticSpectacle You'll just have to be fixed.
01:20 pickledMermaid i can't be fixed
01:20 pickledMermaid its a thing that no one can do
01:20 ballisticSpectacle No, it's just going to be hard.
01:20 ballisticSpectacle But anything worth doing is.
01:21 pickledMermaid well then why are you wasting your effort on just another player killer
01:21 pickledMermaid i'm not the first
01:21 pickledMermaid and i sure ain't the last
01:21 ballisticSpectacle But you're here.
01:21 ballisticSpectacle And, technically, I'm also a player killer.
01:21 ballisticSpectacle But... I don't *want* to be.
01:22 ballisticSpectacle And that makes all the difference in the world, don't you think?
01:22 pickledMermaid yeah well
01:22 pickledMermaid i don't care that i killed them
01:22 pickledMermaid i guess that's the difference between us
01:22 ballisticSpectacle Now, Heries.
01:22 pickledMermaid that and i've kill around 23 more people than you
01:22 ballisticSpectacle I can't listen very well if you lie to me.
01:22 ballisticSpectacle You obviously care.
01:23 ballisticSpectacle If you didn't, why would you be acting like this?
01:24 pickledMermaid maybe i just like the way blood looks
01:25 ballisticSpectacle And then you'd advertise the fact that you have this hemophilia to the forums... why?
01:26 pickledMermaid who says i want to advertise everything about me
01:27 ballisticSpectacle Well, you keep coming back, for one.
01:28 pickledMermaid maybe i like hearing you all cry out in protest at what i do
01:28 ballisticSpectacle Somehow, I doubt that.
01:29 pickledMermaid you can doubt all you want
01:29 ballisticSpectacle I don't think you're evil, Heries. Not truely, anyway.
01:29 ballisticSpectacle I think you're scared of yourself. I think you're scarred, and not just physically.
01:29 pickledMermaid then i guess you don't know much do you
01:30 pickledMermaid obviously i'm evil
01:30 pickledMermaid who else does this shit but someone who doesn't give a damn
01:30 pickledMermaid this whole thing is going to burn, everyone is going to go down one at a damn time
01:30 ballisticSpectacle Fear does strange things to a person.
01:30 ballisticSpectacle It makes them believe falsehoods over the truth.
01:30 ballisticSpectacle Listen.
01:31 ballisticSpectacle We don't have to do everything all in one night.
01:31 ballisticSpectacle But if you ever need someone to talk to...
01:31 pickledMermaid you know what
01:31 ballisticSpectacle Contact me, alright?
01:31 pickledMermaid fuck you
01:31 ballisticSpectacle Good night, Heries.
01:31 pickledMermaid fuck you again
01:32 pickledMermaid i'll bleed you out someday
01:32 ballisticSpectacle Glad to hear you'll be thinking of me.
01:33 pickledMermaid only thinking of your corpse
01:33 ballisticSpectacle You gotta remember, heries.
01:33 ballisticSpectacle Death isn't the end.
01:33 ballisticSpectacle For me, or for you.
01:34 pickledMermaid well i hope you enjoy when you're dead
01:34 ballisticSpectacle Talk to you later, then?
01:35 pickledMermaid no you won't
01:35 ballisticSpectacle Great. See you later.
01:35 pickledMermaid has blocked ballisticSpectacle

[alcoholicAnomaly]

16:16 alcoholicAnomaly heyyyy
16:16 specificNihilism sigh
16:16 specificNihilism hello
16:16 alcoholicAnomaly what's the matter, not happy to hear from me?
16:16 specificNihilism not particularly
16:16 specificNihilism it's been
16:16 specificNihilism oh forget it
16:16 specificNihilism what do you want?
16:17 alcoholicAnomaly i just wanted to see how you were doing
16:17 specificNihilism fine
16:17 alcoholicAnomaly
16:17 specificNihilism how are you?
16:18 alcoholicAnomaly good, i've finally got the hang of manipulating people with this aspect
16:18 specificNihilism so you're still doing that
16:18 alcoholicAnomaly you assume i would just stop?
16:19 specificNihilism not really no
16:19 alcoholicAnomaly already one of these little humans fell for a trap and got themselves accidentally killed
16:19 alcoholicAnomaly it was almost funny
16:20 specificNihilism listen
16:20 specificNihilism can you just
16:20 specificNihilism not today
16:20 specificNihilism please
16:21 alcoholicAnomaly why not todayyyy
16:21 alcoholicAnomaly :?
16:21 specificNihilism because enough has already happened
16:21 specificNihilism and she just
16:21 specificNihilism no
16:21 specificNihilism you know what
16:22 specificNihilism she's not going to give you ideas
16:22 alcoholicAnomaly give me ideas for what? hehe :3
16:23 specificNihilism fine
16:23 specificNihilism someone carved out their tongue and throat with an axe
16:23 alcoholicAnomaly hahahahahahahaha
16:23 specificNihilism someone has been tormenting people in a way that would make you proud
16:23 alcoholicAnomaly hahaha
16:23 alcoholicAnomaly yeah i know
16:23 specificNihilism and spenih is probably going to lose a [c player]
16:23 specificNihilism and then die
16:24 alcoholicAnomaly awwwww now it would be a shame if you died
16:24 alcoholicAnomaly really
16:24 specificNihilism oh wel
16:24 specificNihilism if it happens
16:24 specificNihilism it happens
16:24 alcoholicAnomaly you know i would be sad
16:24 alcoholicAnomaly that it wasn't me being the death of you
16:25 specificNihilism yes
16:25 specificNihilism she's sure
16:25 specificNihilism sorry to disappoint
16:26 alcoholicAnomaly got no fight today huh? geez you're so down and goodness
16:26 alcoholicAnomaly no fun
16:27 specificNihilism sorry
16:27 alcoholicAnomaly
16:27 specificNihilism you'll just have to
16:27 specificNihilism sigh
16:27 specificNihilism she doesn't even know anymore
16:27 alcoholicAnomaly hey, wanna see some pictures?
16:28 specificNihilism her saying no isn't going to stop you
16:28 specificNihilism she doesn't know why you bother to ask
16:28 alcoholicAnomaly because maybe i won't if you say no
16:28 specificNihilism no
16:28 specificNihilism she doesn't believe that
16:28 alcoholicAnomaly oh
16:28 alcoholicAnomaly well if you don't want to see them
16:29 alcoholicAnomaly i guess i won't send you any today
16:29 alcoholicAnomaly :3
16:29 specificNihilism she
16:29 specificNihilism thank you
16:29 alcoholicAnomaly haha
16:31 alcoholicAnomaly ha wellll okay so i might have a few i would like to show you
16:31 alcoholicAnomaly they are super nice pictures
16:31 alcoholicAnomaly i really think you'd like them
16:31 specificNihilism sigh
16:31 specificNihilism whatever
16:34 alcoholicAnomaly oh my god what the ever living fuck is wrong with you
16:35 specificNihilism isn't that the question we'd all like an answer to?
16:35 specificNihilism what is wrong with her?
16:35 specificNihilism pretty much everything
16:35 specificNihilism that's all
16:35 alcoholicAnomaly hm
16:35 alcoholicAnomaly guess that is true
16:35 alcoholicAnomaly everything is wrong with you
16:35 specificNihilism yeah
16:35 specificNihilism well
16:35 specificNihilism yeah
16:38 specificNihilism pretty much
16:38 specificNihilism so go ahead and do whatever
16:39 alcoholicAnomaly wow, what happened to the spenih who didn't like it when i told her all about my exploits
16:39 specificNihilism she's tired
16:39 specificNihilism probably just
16:39 specificNihilism ready to not do this anymore
16:40 alcoholicAnomaly hell i even made sure someone died and you just don't care
16:40 alcoholicAnomaly damn
16:41 specificNihilism sorry
16:45 alcoholicAnomaly holy fuck you just are sorry? damn did someone besides me break you or something
16:45 specificNihilism yeah
16:45 specificNihilism she guesses they did
16:45 alcoholicAnomaly what
16:45 alcoholicAnomaly what
16:45 alcoholicAnomaly what
16:46 alcoholicAnomaly no. that is my damn job
16:46 alcoholicAnomaly D:<
16:46 specificNihilism sorry
16:47 alcoholicAnomaly who the fuck did this imma stab the shit out of them
16:48 specificNihilism even if she told you
16:48 specificNihilism it wouldn't help
16:48 alcoholicAnomaly i mean seriously who the fuck is moving in on my territory
16:49 specificNihilism razdil left her
16:49 specificNihilism and sugnon caused so much pain
16:49 specificNihilism and everyone is in pain
16:49 specificNihilism and sugnon is going to kill her
16:49 specificNihilism business as usual really
16:50 alcoholicAnomaly well i can understand why anyone would leave you
16:50 alcoholicAnomaly you're fucking dumb as hell
16:50 alcoholicAnomaly but no one but me is allowed to fucking kill you
16:51 specificNihilism sorry
16:51 specificNihilism she doesn't think anyone can stop it now
16:53 alcoholicAnomaly wow, what a fucking push over
16:53 alcoholicAnomaly glad to know you're going to die
16:53 alcoholicAnomaly you know what
16:53 alcoholicAnomaly never fucking mind, let them kill you
16:53 specificNihilism alright
16:53 alcoholicAnomaly ):<
16:53 specificNihilism she can do that
16:54 alcoholicAnomaly good, you're fucking worthless
16:56 specificNihilism yeah
16:56 specificNihilism pretty much
16:57 alcoholicAnomaly fucking hell
16:57 alcoholicAnomaly what the fucking hell
16:58 specificNihilism sorry
16:58 specificNihilism she'll leave you alone now
16:58 specificNihilism she thinks
16:58 alcoholicAnomaly you aren't supposed to be sorry you stupid shit
16:58 alcoholicAnomaly what the fuck
16:59 specificNihilism sorry
16:59 specificNihilism what do you want her to be then?
17:00 alcoholicAnomaly you aren't supposed to be sorry you're supposed to be all angry and shit and not aaaaaaaaaaa
17:00 alcoholicAnomaly aaaaaaaagraaaaaaagggggg
17:01 specificNihilism she can't
17:01 specificNihilism too tired
17:01 specificNihilism too sad
17:03 alcoholicAnomaly why
17:03 alcoholicAnomaly why
17:04 alcoholicAnomaly why
17:04 alcoholicAnomaly why
17:04 specificNihilism she's just
17:04 specificNihilism she loved them
17:04 specificNihilism and she's going to die
17:04 specificNihilism so really
17:04 specificNihilism there's not much of a point anymore
17:13 alcoholicAnomaly really now :\
17:13 specificNihilism shrug
17:13 specificNihilism it's just a matter of time
17:14 specificNihilism at least she won't have to play anymore
17:15 alcoholicAnomaly yeah
17:17 alcoholicAnomaly won't even lie, not having to play would be nice
17:17 specificNihilism yeah
17:17 specificNihilism no more of this
17:17 specificNihilism she could just
17:17 specificNihilism rest
17:17 specificNihilism forever
17:18 alcoholicAnomaly .....
17:18 alcoholicAnomaly yeah
17:18 alcoholicAnomaly
17:21 specificNihilism that sounds
17:21 specificNihilism really nice
17:21 specificNihilism just peace
17:21 specificNihilism and quiet
17:22 alcoholicAnomaly it does sound nice
17:23 alcoholicAnomaly i doubt the horrorterrors would let me rest in peace though
17:23 specificNihilism yeah
17:23 specificNihilism spenih doesn't think she'd really rest easily
17:23 specificNihilism they like her too much to leave her alone
17:24 specificNihilism oh well
17:24 specificNihilism at least she wouldn't have to play the game anymore
17:25 alcoholicAnomaly good point
17:27 specificNihilism well
17:27 specificNihilism she thinks she's going to go
17:27 specificNihilism maybe sleep
17:27 specificNihilism maybe sit outside or something
17:27 alcoholicAnomaly ..... okay
17:27 specificNihilism take care

[alcoholicAnomaly]

17:22 ballisticSpectacle BallisticSpectacle has started pestering pickledMermaid at 20:22
17:22 ballisticSpectacle Evening, Heries.
17:23 alcoholicAnomaly how did you
17:23 alcoholicAnomaly ho
17:23 alcoholicAnomaly how
17:23 ballisticSpectacle I do believe it's time for your next appointment.
17:23 alcoholicAnomaly what
17:23 ballisticSpectacle What? I thought trolls were used to ignoring being banned.
17:23 ballisticSpectacle Perhaps I misjudged?
17:23 alcoholicAnomaly what the fuck are you even talking to me for
17:24 ballisticSpectacle Simple.
17:24 ballisticSpectacle I want to see you... if not happy, at least not as self destructive and miserable as I've seen.
17:25 alcoholicAnomaly i am perfectly fucking happy no one asked you
17:25 ballisticSpectacle I sincerely doubt that, Heries.
17:26 alcoholicAnomaly seriously who the fuck told you my name
17:26 alcoholicAnomaly i need to know so i can make sure they die sometime
17:28 ballisticSpectacle First off, would you kindly use this program?
17:28 alcoholicAnomaly whta
17:28 alcoholicAnomaly *what
17:28 ballisticSpectacle sends "Foodmod.~ath" to pickledMermaid
17:28 alcoholicAnomaly ...... i would rather not
17:29 ballisticSpectacle It's an alemeter mod, that allows you to make foodstuffs from ghost images.
17:29 alcoholicAnomaly i don't need it
17:29 ballisticSpectacle I'd just like to give you something, aA.
17:30 alcoholicAnomaly i don't want anything from you dipshit
17:30 ballisticSpectacle Well, too damn bad. You're getting a cupcake.
17:31 alcoholicAnomaly i don't fucking want your damn cupcake
17:31 ballisticSpectacle
17:31 ballisticSpectacle Just give it a try.
17:31 ballisticSpectacle When has a cupcake ever hurt anyone?
17:31 alcoholicAnomaly no
17:32 ballisticSpectacle Okay.
17:32 ballisticSpectacle You don't have to eat the cupcake.
17:32 ballisticSpectacle How then. Would you like to talk?
17:33 alcoholicAnomaly no i don't want to fucking talk to you
17:33 alcoholicAnomaly why would i fucking want to talk to you
17:33 alcoholicAnomaly how did you even get around the ban
17:34 ballisticSpectacle Because it seems to me that I'm the only one you can talk to.
17:34 alcoholicAnomaly i can talk just fine to var
17:34 alcoholicAnomaly i don't need you
17:34 ballisticSpectacle You've alienated yourself from everyone else on the forums..
17:34 alcoholicAnomaly so what
17:35 ballisticSpectacle So, wouldn't it be nice to talk to a friend?
17:35 ballisticSpectacle I'm trying to be your friend here.
17:35 alcoholicAnomaly i don't have or need any fucking friends
17:35 ballisticSpectacle Yes, you said as much earlier.
17:35 ballisticSpectacle Why do you feel that way?
17:36 alcoholicAnomaly theres no damn point in fucking friends and there is no point in you bothering me
17:36 ballisticSpectacle Come now.
17:37 ballisticSpectacle What made you feel this way?
17:37 ballisticSpectacle What happened?
17:37 alcoholicAnomaly nothing happened
17:37 alcoholicAnomaly i'm the same as i always was
17:37 ballisticSpectacle Now I don't believe taht.
17:37 alcoholicAnomaly ha
17:37 alcoholicAnomaly ha
17:37 alcoholicAnomaly you should believe it
17:37 ballisticSpectacle If you always believed that you were better off alone, and you had no friends...
17:38 ballisticSpectacle Why were you playing Sburb?
17:38 ballisticSpectacle Or Sgrub, or whatever you call it?
17:38 alcoholicAnomaly it was a dumb wriggler mistake and honestly i should never have agreed
17:39 ballisticSpectacle Who did you agree with?
17:40 ballisticSpectacle And why?
17:40 alcoholicAnomaly why do you fucking care so damn much
17:41 ballisticSpectacle Because I want to stop the fighting.
17:41 ballisticSpectacle It's hurting both of you.
17:42 alcoholicAnomaly we aren't fighting right now
17:42 ballisticSpectacle And yet, I'm willing to bet that if you walked into the Forum chat right now, you'd be banned on sight.
17:43 alcoholicAnomaly and i'd laugh about it
17:43 ballisticSpectacle Mostly because of your problems with sN.
17:43 ballisticSpectacle There's many kinda of laughter, Heries.
17:43 ballisticSpectacle Not all of it's good.
17:43 ballisticSpectacle There's insane laughter, pained laughter, lonely laughter...
17:44 ballisticSpectacle Something tells me that you'e pretty lonely.
17:44 alcoholicAnomaly i ain't fucking lonely
17:45 ballisticSpectacle Oh? Is it because your current actions have garnered you so much companionship?
17:45 ballisticSpectacle Everyone needs a friend, Heries.
17:45 alcoholicAnomaly i've got var, and thats more than enough
17:45 alcoholicAnomaly he counts as a friend i guess
17:46 ballisticSpectacle Tell me about Var.
17:46 alcoholicAnomaly no
17:46 alcoholicAnomaly i can't talk about him
17:46 ballisticSpectacle Why can't you talk about him?
17:46 alcoholicAnomaly because
17:46 alcoholicAnomaly i don't
17:46 alcoholicAnomaly i don't want to
17:47 alcoholicAnomaly i can't
17:47 ballisticSpectacle Okay.
17:47 ballisticSpectacle We can talk about something else.
17:47 ballisticSpectacle Your first session? We didn't get to that topic last time.
17:47 alcoholicAnomaly no
17:47 alcoholicAnomaly no
17:47 alcoholicAnomaly i am not talking about anything
17:47 alcoholicAnomaly no
17:47 alcoholicAnomaly why do you even want to know
17:47 alcoholicAnomaly there isn't a damn reason to know
17:48 ballisticSpectacle Because I want to know about you, Heries.
17:48 ballisticSpectacle All these things, your past, your actions.
17:48 alcoholicAnomaly no you don't
17:48 alcoholicAnomaly you don't fucking want to know about me
17:48 ballisticSpectacle They're you.
17:48 ballisticSpectacle I want to know the why of you.
17:48 ballisticSpectacle I want to know why you do the things you do.
17:49 alcoholicAnomaly wh
17:49 alcoholicAnomaly why
17:49 ballisticSpectacle Because.
17:49 ballisticSpectacle I want to help you get better, Heries.
17:50 alcoholicAnomaly i'm not going to get any better you stupid shit
17:50 alcoholicAnomaly and i don't want to
17:50 ballisticSpectacle If that's the case, then why havn't you blocked me yet?
17:51 alcoholicAnomaly has blocked ballisticSpectacle
17:53 ballisticSpectacle started pestering alcoholicAnomaly at 20:53
17:53 alcoholicAnomaly wh
17:53 ballisticSpectacle Okay. I'll let you be for a bit.
17:53 alcoholicAnomaly what
17:53 alcoholicAnomaly what the fuck
17:53 alcoholicAnomaly WHAT THE FUCK
17:53 ballisticSpectacle But if you want to talk, let me know.
17:53 ballisticSpectacle has blocked ballisticSpectacle from responding
17:59 alcoholicAnomaly started pestering ballisticSpectacle at 17:58
17:59 alcoholicAnomaly you
18:03 ballisticSpectacle Ah, glad you decided you wanted to talk, heries.
18:03 ballisticSpectacle Cupcake?
18:03 alcoholicAnomaly just
18:03 alcoholicAnomaly why did you ever bother messaging me
18:03 alcoholicAnomaly in the first place
18:03 ballisticSpectacle It's like I told you.
18:03 ballisticSpectacle I wanted to help you.
18:03 alcoholicAnomaly why
18:03 alcoholicAnomaly why me
18:04 ballisticSpectacle Because.
18:04 ballisticSpectacle You're worth helping.
18:04 alcoholicAnomaly why would you say that
18:04 alcoholicAnomaly how can you even say that
18:04 ballisticSpectacle Simple.
18:04 ballisticSpectacle ....Do trolls have the idea of redemption?
18:07 alcoholicAnomaly .........
18:07 alcoholicAnomaly i don't fucking want redemption
18:07 alcoholicAnomaly i am not looking for it and i don't want it
18:07 ballisticSpectacle Oh, Heries.
18:07 ballisticSpectacle I'm afraid that, if you don't change thigns..
18:07 ballisticSpectacle You're looking at a rather nasty end.
18:07 alcoholicAnomaly i'm going to die
18:07 alcoholicAnomaly yes i know
18:08 ballisticSpectacle No.
18:08 ballisticSpectacle You don't.
18:08 alcoholicAnomaly really
18:08 alcoholicAnomaly you think i don't
18:08 ballisticSpectacle The way you're going, it's not going to be a Sburb-approved death.
18:08 ballisticSpectacle I'll be murder, rationalized as justice.
18:08 alcoholicAnomaly oh i know
18:09 ballisticSpectacle Is... Is that what you want?
18:09 alcoholicAnomaly and then the cycle of murder just keeps going around and around
18:09 ballisticSpectacle Do you want to die, Heries?
18:09 alcoholicAnomaly ha
18:09 alcoholicAnomaly ha
18:10 ballisticSpectacle Because I don't want you to die.
18:10 ballisticSpectacle I don't want anyone to die, if I can help it.
18:10 alcoholicAnomaly well i've already lead a player in my session to his death
18:11 ballisticSpectacle That's... unfortunate.
18:11 alcoholicAnomaly dying is a thing that happens a lot
18:11 ballisticSpectacle That doesn't mean it need our help.
18:11 ballisticSpectacle if anything, it means it should be fought tooth and nail.
18:11 alcoholicAnomaly well maybe i get some enjoyment out of helping it along
18:12 ballisticSpectacle Hm.
18:13 ballisticSpectacle Last time we talked, you mentioned Mkyall.
18:13 ballisticSpectacle Why don't you tell me about them?
18:14 alcoholicAnomaly what the hell do you even want to know about mkyall
18:15 ballisticSpectacle Last time, you indicated that they were someone you were close to.
18:16 alcoholicAnomaly yeah well it's hard to continue being close with a dead troll
18:16 ballisticSpectacle What were they like?
18:16 ballisticSpectacle When they were alive, that is.
18:17 alcoholicAnomaly he was...
18:17 alcoholicAnomaly he was nice
18:18 ballisticSpectacle How so?
18:19 alcoholicAnomaly just
18:19 alcoholicAnomaly give me a moment
18:19 ballisticSpectacle Take all the time you need.
18:40 alcoholicAnomaly okay i guess i'm back
18:40 alcoholicAnomaly had to
18:40 alcoholicAnomaly tell one of my coplayers to go fuck off
18:56 alcoholicAnomaly fucking hate my coplayers
18:56 alcoholicAnomaly dumb asshole was all up in my business
18:57 ballisticSpectacle Oh?
18:57 alcoholicAnomaly apparently my life player is convinced i'm drinking too much
18:58 ballisticSpectacle Yes, life players get a tad bit motherly.
18:58 alcoholicAnomaly don't need their concern
18:59 alcoholicAnomaly even if i die of poisoning, its not a just death
18:59 alcoholicAnomaly or heroic
18:59 ballisticSpectacle Are you God Teir, then?
18:59 alcoholicAnomaly .... yeah
19:00 ballisticSpectacle Well, even so, it's in the Life palyers nature to be concerned for their co-players' healths, God Teir or not.
19:00 alcoholicAnomaly that and he don't know shit about trolls and he was being a dumbass
19:02 ballisticSpectacle Are trolls immune to alcohol poisoning, then?
19:02 alcoholicAnomaly no
19:02 alcoholicAnomaly it just takes a lot for a seadweller to kill themselves
19:02 alcoholicAnomaly enough to kill a human about ten times over
19:03 ballisticSpectacle And how much have you been drinking lately?
19:04 alcoholicAnomaly enough to kill a human ten times over
19:04 ballisticSpectacle Yeah, I can see why he'd be concerned.
19:05 alcoholicAnomaly its none of his damned nosy business if i want to drink myself to death several times
19:05 ballisticSpectacle It kinda is.
19:05 ballisticSpectacle Co-players are supposed to watch out for eachother.
19:05 alcoholicAnomaly yeah well i send them to their deaths
19:05 alcoholicAnomaly they shouldn't want to watch out for me
19:06 alcoholicAnomaly well they don't realize i'm killing them off one by one
19:06 alcoholicAnomaly but
19:07 ballisticSpectacle And why are you killing them off?
19:07 alcoholicAnomaly i don't like them
19:07 alcoholicAnomaly i don't need them
19:08 ballisticSpectacle And why is that?
19:08 ballisticSpectacle No one can win this game alone, Heries.
19:08 alcoholicAnomaly i know
19:08 alcoholicAnomaly i've got a little lowblood who likes to listen to me
19:08 alcoholicAnomaly i don't need many
19:09 ballisticSpectacle But each dead player makes things harder for you.
19:10 alcoholicAnomaly so what
19:10 alcoholicAnomaly i've already got two pendants out of 11
19:11 ballisticSpectacle ...Quite.
19:11 ballisticSpectacle Now, before we were interuppted, we were goint to talk about your friend, Mkyall.
19:14 alcoholicAnomaly what about him now
19:14 alcoholicAnomaly because he was nice
19:14 alcoholicAnomaly and now he's dead
19:14 alcoholicAnomaly just like a lot of other people who played this game
19:14 ballisticSpectacle Well, tell me more about him.
19:14 ballisticSpectacle What was he like when he was alive?
19:15 alcoholicAnomaly he liked photography
19:15 alcoholicAnomaly we took pictures together
19:15 alcoholicAnomaly okay
19:15 alcoholicAnomaly happy now
19:15 ballisticSpectacle What sort of pictures?
19:15 alcoholicAnomaly everything and anything
19:16 ballisticSpectacle Do you have any with you? Would you want to show me some?
19:16 alcoholicAnomaly i don't want to show you any of them
19:16 alcoholicAnomaly they're mine
19:16 ballisticSpectacle That's fine.
19:18 alcoholicAnomaly he was special
19:18 alcoholicAnomaly at least to me
19:19 ballisticSpectacle Quadrant special, or platonically special?
19:19 alcoholicAnomaly .....
19:19 alcoholicAnomaly i don't want to say
19:20 ballisticSpectacle That's fair.
19:20 ballisticSpectacle Now, can you tell me anything else about him?
19:20 alcoholicAnomaly he had a funny smile
19:22 ballisticSpectacle Did he now?
19:22 alcoholicAnomaly ..........
19:22 alcoholicAnomaly yeah
19:22 ballisticSpectacle You two talk often?
19:23 alcoholicAnomaly fuck can we just not talk about him
19:23 alcoholicAnomaly i can't
19:23 alcoholicAnomaly i can't do it
19:23 ballisticSpectacle Okay.
19:23 ballisticSpectacle We'll drop the subject for now.
19:23 alcoholicAnomaly oh thank god
19:24 ballisticSpectacle How about we talk about some of the other people from your first session?
19:24 alcoholicAnomaly there was only four of us, and two of us died
19:24 alcoholicAnomaly end of story
19:25 ballisticSpectacle Tell me about them.
19:25 alcoholicAnomaly no
19:25 alcoholicAnomaly no
19:26 alcoholicAnomaly you know what
19:26 alcoholicAnomaly no
19:26 alcoholicAnomaly just
19:26 alcoholicAnomaly blocks ballisticSpectacle
19:26 ballisticSpectacle beings pestering alcoholicAnomaly at 22:26
19:26 alcoholicAnomaly fuck
19:26 alcoholicAnomaly i keep forgetting you can get around that
19:26 ballisticSpectacle Okay. I think we can leave it there for now.
19:27 ballisticSpectacle We will talk later, but for right now, we've done enough.
19:27 ballisticSpectacle Remember, if you're wanting to talk to someone outside your session, PM me.
19:27 ballisticSpectacle stopped replying
19:27 alcoholicAnomaly i don't need to talk to you

[genesisArtificer]

pastgenesisArtificer had accepted the transfer of 'alcano_log.txt"

pastgenesisArtificer had blacked out!

[alcoholicAnomaly]

15:43 integratedInfiltrator hissessionmatesarelookingforhim
15:44 integratedInfiltrator theyaskedformyhelpandicouldntfindhim
15:44 integratedInfiltrator whichmeansheisinthemagicantsomewhere
15:44 alcoholicAnomaly fuck
15:44 integratedInfiltrator iamsorry
15:44 alcoholicAnomaly fuck fuck fuck
15:44 integratedInfiltrator >:€
15:44 integratedInfiltrator icanlookagainifyouwishbutidoubthewouldhavemoved
15:45 integratedInfiltrator thoughperhaps
15:45 alcoholicAnomaly ..... do it i am going to be as nice as possible and just look again please
15:45 integratedInfiltrator iwill
15:45 integratedInfiltrator caniaskyouthough
15:45 alcoholicAnomaly what
15:45 integratedInfiltrator areyouconsideringaquadrantwithhim
15:45 alcoholicAnomaly ............................................
15:46 alcoholicAnomaly i hope you die and no of course not why would i even
15:47 integratedInfiltrator ijustwantedtomakecertainyouwerenotattemptingtofindacoauspiticeorkismesisthatdidnotwantobefound
15:47 integratedInfiltrator ididnotmeantooffend
15:47 alcoholicAnomaly what
15:47 integratedInfiltrator apologies
15:48 alcoholicAnomaly he's stupid and squishy and probably dead and just wanted to make sure if he was dead or something
15:48 integratedInfiltrator i just wanted to make certain that you were not attempting to contact him if he was your coauspitice or kismesis and did not want to be found
15:48 alcoholicAnomaly >
15:48 alcoholicAnomaly ):<
15:48 integratedInfiltrator >:€ I am sorry
15:48 integratedInfiltrator I didnotmeantooffend
15:49 alcoholicAnomaly yeah whatever
15:49 integratedInfiltrator butihavehurtpeoplelatelyanddonotwishtorepeattheprocess
15:49 alcoholicAnomaly good job, keep up the work on that by the way
15:49 alcoholicAnomaly i heard about what you did to sn
15:49 integratedInfiltrator will
15:49 integratedInfiltrator will NEVER do that to anyone ever again if can help it
15:50 alcoholicAnomaly yeah that's nice and all. i thought it was funny
15:50 alcoholicAnomaly except for the fact that it was sn and that's my job to hurt her
15:51 integratedInfiltrator a kismesis doesn't hurt her kismesis, she seeks to make her rival stronger to perpetually strive against her in an attempt to better herself and win.
15:51 alcoholicAnomaly i didn't ask you for a damn opinion on this
15:51 integratedInfiltrator if he is not your moirail will not look on your behalf
15:51 alcoholicAnomaly what
15:52 alcoholicAnomaly just
15:52 integratedInfiltrator you enjoy hurting other people
15:52 integratedInfiltrator will not help you hurt other people
15:52 integratedInfiltrator won't risk it
15:52 alcoholicAnomaly it doesn't hurt anyone to fucking look for the dumbass
15:53 integratedInfiltrator it hurts if he doesn't want to be found and the person who is asking is known to be mentally unhealthy and to kill other players
15:53 alcoholicAnomaly he's the one who started contacting me of his own accord
15:53 alcoholicAnomaly that fucking asshole
15:53 integratedInfiltrator what is he to you
15:53 alcoholicAnomaly i don't
15:53 alcoholicAnomaly i don't fucking know okay
15:54 integratedInfiltrator promise it isnt black or ashblack and will look for you
15:55 alcoholicAnomaly fine, it isn't black or ashblack
15:55 alcoholicAnomaly i swear to whatever god is out there
15:57 integratedInfiltrator ((ugh. waiting time. because BS didn't answer my question then went to get food.))
15:58 integratedInfiltrator beforeyouattempttorunitmayipleasecheckthecodes
15:58 alcoholicAnomaly whatever fine
15:59 integratedInfiltrator ((send the link over the board, actually, let's repost that bit))

[alcoholicAnomaly]

15:38 zoppaGavotte hi!
15:38 alcoholicAnomaly hello?
15:38 zoppaGavotte i don't know what they're all yelling about and i'm pretty sure i wouldn't understand even if they explained it, but bas seemed pretty cool, aside from that weird video i didn't understand.
15:39 zoppaGavotte i was there when he went missing, though!
15:39 zoppaGavotte so if you wanted the story about that, i could tell you!
15:39 alcoholicAnomaly tell me
15:39 alcoholicAnomaly what happened
15:39 zoppaGavotte well, they were talking about clowns or something, and he linked to this weird human video?
15:40 alcoholicAnomaly what
15:40 zoppaGavotte where two humans in ceremonial-looking makeup... sang or something?
15:40 zoppaGavotte about how rainbows are miracles.
15:40 alcoholicAnomaly oh my god that fucking dumbass he didn't
15:41 zoppaGavotte and someone else in the chat was like, "you suck!" and left, and then everyone was like, "balspe you idiot!"
15:41 zoppaGavotte and then he freaked out and started smashing all his computers.
15:41 alcoholicAnomaly who said he sucked
15:41 alcoholicAnomaly who told him this shit
15:41 zoppaGavotte uh, i think it was a troll who got upset?
15:42 alcoholicAnomaly ..... do you know /which/ troll???
15:42 alcoholicAnomaly >
15:42 zoppaGavotte and then everyone else was talking about what i guess was human worship or something...
15:42 zoppaGavotte i'm sorry, i don't remember.
15:42 zoppaGavotte i didn't really understand a lot of what was going on, i'm not a human or a troll and a lot of the stuff wasn't translating right.
15:43 alcoholicAnomaly okay so bs, being the huge idiot he is, posting something that was blasphemous to the subjuggulators and someone called him an idiot and then he started freaking out?
15:43 alcoholicAnomaly have i got that right
15:43 zoppaGavotte that sounds about right.
15:46 zoppaGavotte anyway, i hoped that helped!
15:46 alcoholicAnomaly it did
15:46 zoppaGavotte )=//~~~ good!
16:00 zoppaGavotte are they baiting you on purpose?
16:00 alcoholicAnomaly fucking i don'ta know
16:01 zoppaGavotte well... if they are, you should ignore them!
16:01 alcoholicAnomaly din't ask you
16:01 zoppaGavotte i mean, i'm really bad at ignoring people, too.
16:01 zoppaGavotte like that time someone called me slimy!
16:01 alcoholicAnomaly thats col you probably are dslimy
16:01 zoppaGavotte i sulked for like ten minutes.
16:01 zoppaGavotte aww, hey... O=
16:02 zoppaGavotte i won't take offense, because people are picking on you, but you don't need to call me slimy!

[alcoholicAnomaly]

18:49 alcoholicAnomaly okay so you wanted to talk about things right
18:50 ballisticSpectacle Yeah.
18:50 ballisticSpectacle For starters, what was your home life like?
18:50 alcoholicAnomaly i had a three headed shark monster for a mom
18:50 alcoholicAnomaly what do you think?
18:50 ballisticSpectacle Yes, well, aside from that.
18:50 ballisticSpectacle What did you do for fun?
18:50 alcoholicAnomaly i liked to take pictures... and well a lot of the booze i drink
18:51 alcoholicAnomaly i make myself
18:52 ballisticSpectacle Do you have any of the pictures?
18:52 alcoholicAnomaly i lost a lot of them over the sweeps
18:52 alcoholicAnomaly but let me see what i have
18:57 alcoholicAnomaly uploads folder "photographs"
18:57 ballisticSpectacle downloads folder "photographs"
18:57 alcoholicAnomaly ((pretty much standard photography, her lusus, her hive, trees grass random shit))
18:58 ballisticSpectacle These are pretty good.
18:58 alcoholicAnomaly not really
19:00 ballisticSpectacle No, really!
19:00 ballisticSpectacle So, this is your house?
19:00 alcoholicAnomaly yeah, i thought the cliff was a good idea at the time
19:00 alcoholicAnomaly not sure why as a wriggler building on a cliff was cool
19:00 alcoholicAnomaly but
19:00 alcoholicAnomaly yeah
19:01 ballisticSpectacle I dunno, gives it a certain atmosphere.
19:01 alcoholicAnomaly mkyall was better at photography than me
19:02 alcoholicAnomaly and my hive was alright, i liked the sound of the waves against the cliff
19:02 ballisticSpectacle Sounds kinda relaxing, really.
19:03 alcoholicAnomaly yeah, except when my lusus was driving ships up against the cliffs
19:03 alcoholicAnomaly there were always shipwrecks at the bottom
19:04 ballisticSpectacle I take it this is your sharkmom in this photo?
19:04 alcoholicAnomaly yeah
19:05 ballisticSpectacle Well, she certanly looks...
19:05 ballisticSpectacle intimidating.
19:05 alcoholicAnomaly she was alright i guess
19:05 alcoholicAnomaly loved her like any wriggler loves their lusus
19:08 ballisticSpectacle Now, who's this? Standing in front of your house, with the grin.
19:08 alcoholicAnomaly oh that one...
19:09 alcoholicAnomaly thats mykall
19:09 alcoholicAnomaly we were
19:09 alcoholicAnomaly close
19:09 ballisticSpectacle Close?
19:09 alcoholicAnomaly i played my first session with him
19:10 ballisticSpectacle Ah.
19:10 ballisticSpectacle Wanna talk about him?
19:11 alcoholicAnomaly .... he was one of my first friends
19:11 alcoholicAnomaly mykall was my first flushcrush
19:11 ballisticSpectacle Ah.
19:12 alcoholicAnomaly and i got him killed
19:12 ballisticSpectacle ..Well.
19:12 ballisticSpectacle How'd it happen?
19:13 alcoholicAnomaly we were fighting his denizen
19:13 alcoholicAnomaly we didn't know what we were doing, and there was only four of us
19:14 alcoholicAnomaly he pushed me out of the way of an attack
19:14 ballisticSpectacle Oh. Oh, Heries.
19:14 ballisticSpectacle hugs Heries
19:14 alcoholicAnomaly hugs mike back
19:15 alcoholicAnomaly i was supposed to see what was going to happen, but i failed so bad as a seer
19:15 ballisticSpectacle No, Heries. No. It wasn't your fault.
19:16 alcoholicAnomaly it is though
19:16 alcoholicAnomaly i suggested we fight the denizens
19:17 ballisticSpectacle I'm so sorry that that happened to you, Heries.
19:18 alcoholicAnomaly yeah well he wasn't the last person who died because of me either
19:18 ballisticSpectacle It hurts to lose someone you loved, even for a moment.
19:18 alcoholicAnomaly yeah
19:18 ballisticSpectacle But... you just have to get up and move on. There's nothing else you can do, aside from wallow in dispair.
19:18 ballisticSpectacle And if you do that, then the game's won.
19:19 alcoholicAnomaly i know
19:19 ballisticSpectacle You'll always remember Mykall, right?
19:19 alcoholicAnomaly yeah, i remember everyone
19:19 alcoholicAnomaly no matter what i've said
19:19 alcoholicAnomaly i remember them all
19:20 ballisticSpectacle Then they'll always be with you, in spirit.
19:20 alcoholicAnomaly yeah, well i'm sure ionnah would be pissed to know i was the one who got her killed too
19:20 alcoholicAnomaly out of a four player session, two of us died
19:20 alcoholicAnomaly both of them my damned fault
19:20 ballisticSpectacle I know what you mean, Heries.
19:21 ballisticSpectacle But... if you don't keep going, keep doing your best to help the next people you meet, then what's the point?
19:21 ballisticSpectacle Cheer up, heries.
19:22 ballisticSpectacle There's always a way for things to get better.
19:22 alcoholicAnomaly .... yeah you're right
19:23 ballisticSpectacle Now, c'mon. You're a strong troll, right?
19:23 alcoholicAnomaly i ripped someone's arm off
19:23 alcoholicAnomaly i think that's obvious
19:23 ballisticSpectacle Exactly. You're strong enough to take whatever the game throws at you.
19:24 alcoholicAnomaly i'm on my 11th session
19:24 alcoholicAnomaly i would think so
19:25 ballisticSpectacle So you're damn sure strong enough to help the people you know.
19:25 ballisticSpectacle Doesn't even have to be through fighting.
19:25 ballisticSpectacle Hell, that's half the reason I bake..
19:25 alcoholicAnomaly yeah. makes me remember that i haven't picked up a fiddle in forever
19:25 alcoholicAnomaly used to play
19:25 alcoholicAnomaly haven't in a long time
19:26 ballisticSpectacle I know that, if offered at the right time, a cupcake can work wonders and move mountains.
19:26 ballisticSpectacle you fiddle?
19:26 alcoholicAnomaly .... yeah
19:26 ballisticSpectacle I'd like to hear you play sometime.
19:26 alcoholicAnomaly i sing too
19:26 alcoholicAnomaly but
19:26 alcoholicAnomaly i'm not good at either
19:26 ballisticSpectacle Yeah. I mean, I sing a bit. But I'm not that great.
19:27 alcoholicAnomaly i bet you aren't that bad
19:27 ballisticSpectacle Hey, when we finally end up in a session together, we'll have to do a karaoke thing.
19:27 ballisticSpectacle Yeah, and I bet you sing like an angelfish. : P
19:27 alcoholicAnomaly i reely doubt that
19:27 alcoholicAnomaly hehe
19:27 ballisticSpectacle Hehe.
19:28 alcoholicAnomaly but i really hope we end up in a session together
19:28 ballisticSpectacle So do I.
19:28 alcoholicAnomaly hugs mike
19:28 ballisticSpectacle hugs Heries back
19:29 alcoholicAnomaly i don't know what i did to deserve having anyone like you in my life
19:29 alcoholicAnomaly i'm a fucking horrible person
19:29 ballisticSpectacle Well, Heries. Sometimes life ain't fair.
19:30 ballisticSpectacle Just gotta take the good with the bad.
19:30 ballisticSpectacle And you're not fucking horrible. You can be pretty damn sweet when you want to be.
19:31 alcoholicAnomaly i am really horrible
19:31 alcoholicAnomaly i sent sn a picture of me holding a severed head for gods sakes
19:31 ballisticSpectacle Yeah, about that, why'd you do that, anyway?
19:31 alcoholicAnomaly i just
19:31 alcoholicAnomaly i have no idea
19:31 alcoholicAnomaly i don't even hate her that much
19:32 ballisticSpectacle Could be that you wanted to prove to someone that you're important.
19:32 alcoholicAnomaly i'm not important though... i know that
19:32 ballisticSpectacle Maybe you just wanted someone to pay attention to you.
19:32 alcoholicAnomaly i guess
19:33 alcoholicAnomaly i want her attention, but honestly i don't really want her hate
19:33 ballisticSpectacle But that's all in the past, right?
19:33 alcoholicAnomaly yeah
19:33 ballisticSpectacle Maybe you just want to be her friend.
19:33 alcoholicAnomaly shes too kind and sweet and i'm a monster compared to her
19:33 alcoholicAnomaly i don't know how she does it
19:34 ballisticSpectacle But, given what happened in your first session, I wouldn't blame you for being afraid of becoming friends with someone.
19:34 ballisticSpectacle Have you tried talking to her?
19:35 ballisticSpectacle No threats, no anger..
19:35 ballisticSpectacle Just talk to her.
19:35 alcoholicAnomaly no
19:35 alcoholicAnomaly i don't even know what to say to her
19:35 alcoholicAnomaly i think i drunk apologized once though
19:35 ballisticSpectacle Well, that's the thing about drunk apologizing.
19:35 ballisticSpectacle It comes off as kinda... insincere?
19:36 ballisticSpectacle And that's what people want most out of the people they talk to. Honesty.
19:36 alcoholicAnomaly i'm not used to being honest
19:36 alcoholicAnomaly i can't even help it
19:36 ballisticSpectacle Look, you're sober now, right? Just apologize to sN from the heart.
19:36 alcoholicAnomaly i
19:36 alcoholicAnomaly i can't
19:37 ballisticSpectacle Yeah, 10 sessions is a long time to ingore whatever you're feeling.
19:37 ballisticSpectacle ...I'm not going to force you, aA.
19:37 ballisticSpectacle But I don't think it'd be good to let any resentment fester longer then necessary.
19:39 alcoholicAnomaly i know
19:40 ballisticSpectacle I know you know, Heries.
19:40 alcoholicAnomaly its hard to forget all that i did
19:40 ballisticSpectacle Just, do it when you feel comfortable.
19:40 alcoholicAnomaly its hard to forget what others have said about me
19:40 ballisticSpectacle Force it, and you'll end up flustered and end up sending pictures of dead bodies or something.
19:40 alcoholicAnomaly ((oh god i snorted at that))
19:41 ballisticSpectacle Okay.
19:41 ballisticSpectacle Just clear your mind.
19:41 ballisticSpectacle Empty it of all distractions.
19:41 alcoholicAnomaly .... ok
19:41 ballisticSpectacle Focus only on what you want.
19:41 alcoholicAnomaly what if i don't know what it is i want?
19:41 ballisticSpectacle Then don't focus on anything.
19:41 ballisticSpectacle Just take a deep breath.
19:42 ballisticSpectacle Keep taking the deep breaths until you feel calm and relaxed.
19:42 alcoholicAnomaly its hard to be relaxed. i can't relax i might fall asleep and then i'll be in one of those bubbles
19:43 alcoholicAnomaly i can't deal with the dead
19:43 alcoholicAnomaly i can't even deal with the living
19:43 ballisticSpectacle Oh, Hereis.
19:43 ballisticSpectacle How long have you been awake?
19:43 alcoholicAnomaly long enough
19:44 ballisticSpectacle In that case, I think you should rest. No matter what, I'll be there with you, okay?
19:44 alcoholicAnomaly i passed out for a while after hiding on my land, but that was because i hadn't had a chance to really get any healing items
19:44 alcoholicAnomaly .... i'm not doing too bad, i don't have to sleep that often
19:44 ballisticSpectacle If you say so...
19:45 alcoholicAnomaly i'm doing alright, i promise
19:45 alcoholicAnomaly even my fang is regrowing already
19:45 ballisticSpectacle I believe you, Heries.
19:45 ballisticSpectacle That's good!
19:46 alcoholicAnomaly yeah. the arm that i had to dislocate is still floating in and out of numbness, but it'll fix itself eventually
19:46 alcoholicAnomaly i've done worse to myself
19:46 ballisticSpectacle Good.
19:46 ballisticSpectacle Now, why don't we go back into public chat, and I'll serve up some cake.
19:47 alcoholicAnomaly i
19:47 alcoholicAnomaly i guess i can do that
19:47 ballisticSpectacle Good.
19:47 alcoholicAnomaly <> :3
19:47 ballisticSpectacle <> : )