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Post by overwroughtStenographer on Sept 30, 2012 5:27:16 GMT -5
Hi
I just started my third session and I'm seeing diamonds for one of my co-players. He's a 13lue 13lood and he's a 13ackstabbing coward 13ut his 13ackrubs are legendary and I just feel so 12elaxed around him. I apologize if this is too graphically pale for some people's highblood sensibilities 13ut I just want to curl up with him and eviscerate anything that tries to hurt him. He puts on a show for the other coldblood pricks 13ut I know he's pale for me too.
I haven't 13roached the subject with him 13ecause I know we would eventually have to part ways. I don't want to say goodbye to another fucking moirail, assuming we make it through this session alive which isn't guaranteed. I know it's possible to stay in contact over the chat client but I can't handle long distance feelings jams, I can 13arely 13e there for people in the same session as me without worrying about some poor asshole I pity a universe away. Anything I have with him would have to 13e temporary and end when the session ends. I'm not sure if I can get him to understand that and I don't know if he'll agree to it, and if he doesn't I don't know how he'll handle it. He has kind of a revenge fixation, plus he's in good with the other highbloods in our session, both the indigo and the goddamn sea-dweller.
I know it's fucking stupid but I always thought my diamond quadrant would 13e forever. So I'm asking if any of you have been in similar situations where you knew you would have to say goodbye to someone you were pale for.
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Post by casualUcalegon on Sept 30, 2012 10:19:24 GMT -5
OUt of the way, Moirallegiance expert coming throUgh!
Firstly, the answer to Ur last qUestion is yes. Albire and I were separated when the conscription fleet came. We made it work regardless with a lot of compUter stUff, and we kept making it work after oUr first session ended and we were separated again.
BUt let's back Up a bit. U said U know he's pale for U. How? It's really fUcking easy to misinterpret platonic talk as pale if Ur in the dancing on cloUds stage of a pale crUsh, so let's make sUre that's not what's happening here. What has he done or said to indicate that he's pale for U?
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Post by overwroughtStenographer on Sept 30, 2012 18:08:28 GMT -5
Yeah, yeah I know it's not easy to tell them apart. And I can't really pin down anything specific either, which is just fucking peachy, I know. I'd have to say it's the way he acts around me compared to the other lowbloods. 13est example I can think of is the mustard guy he nearly strangled 13ecause he thought he was mouthing off to him, I've said worse and he hasn't laid a hand on me except to pap me quiet. He also doesn't seem to like people touching him but he'll let me straighten his collar and his stupid 13owtie and stuff, he even let me hug him once when he was upset.
13ut you could be absolutely 12ight, I could 13e just another pale-floozy so desperate for fucking affection that she thinks she's diamonds with any 12andom asshole who'll trade paps with her. It could just 13e a plot on his part and as soon as he gets me alone in a pile he'll strangle me. Hell maybe it's an aspect thing, he's a page of might right now, maybe he's just doing it all for an arc 13onus.
13ut I 12eally hope not. I think I 12eally do want this, even if it won't last forever.
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Post by casualUcalegon on Sept 30, 2012 21:14:15 GMT -5
[Oh right shoUld probably Rangoon warn]
It's a good sign that he's allowing Ur overtUres, bUt there's a planet's worth of difference between tolerating and reciprocating. I'm assUming from Ur answer that he hasn't been initiating anything? That's not a very good sign there, bUt I don't have enoUgh information to say how bad of a one.
And that means more qUestions. Do U normally see him alone or with the other players? That time when he was Upset, did the hUg do anything to help? How easily inflUenced is he by the other highbloods in Ur session?
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Post by overwroughtStenographer on Oct 1, 2012 14:01:23 GMT -5
Well when I hugged him he didn't melt into my embrace or anything smutty like that 13ut he 12elaxed a little and gave me a squeeze back. He didn't tell me what was 13othering him though, which now that I look at it is a really 13ad sign. I did make him some percolated caffeine rations though and of course he made me call them coffee, which just made me want to shoosh him.
Fuck, I've got it 13ad for him don't I.
He doesn't seem to like spending time around the indigo, not surprising considering he's terrified of her and she has a habit of jabbing anyone who interrupts her with syringes. He 13asically idolizes the fishtroll though, if 13y "influenced" you mean "would do anything he asks no matter how dumb" then I'd say he's pretty easily influenced by him. I swear they spend all their time talking about how much they enjoy being sophisticated and dressing up fancily. I'd say he spends about as much time with the sea dweller as me, and tries to avoid 13eing seen 13y anyone else.
I hope I don't have to compete with this guy, I don't know how to dress much nicer than "suspenders and a tie" and you've probably guessed I can't exactly project an air of sophistication. Hell I might 13e 13etter off forgetting the whole thing, I know for a fact I can't take dandy-fins in a fight, he's 13een dueling since he was hatched and I'm just an office clerk.
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Post by casualUcalegon on Oct 2, 2012 9:36:44 GMT -5
[Looky that, a warning]
U have a seadweller in Ur session? U poor UnlUcky bastard. Change of plans. I was going to tell U to take things slow and gradUally toss oUt hints, so that if he doesn't feel pale for U U have an oUt.
BUt U cannot oUt-scheme a seadweller. And they'll have UndoUbtedly noticed Ur palecrUsh there. If they're rivals or jUst plain don't like relationships in castes that far apart then taking Ur time won't work. Get him alone and confess. Don't fancy it Up, jUst tell him Ud like to talk to him and say it straight. "I'm pale for U. WoUld U be my moirail?" shoUld do. Ur Light, U shoUld be able to scUrry oUt of there if things go wrong.
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Post by overwroughtStenographer on Oct 2, 2012 22:22:01 GMT -5
I came clean with him and he ran off. Said he had some urgent matters to attend to and 13ounced out, 13ecause nothing says "expert might player" like running from a tough decision. And of course 13eing the fucking sap I am I just want to hunt this idiot down and shoosh him until he's not afraid to be pitied 13y a half-wit dirtblood who can't figure out someone that high on the spectrum's out of her league. Speaking of which 13itchfins is pissed with me. He keeps trolling me asking where Drouet, which is the name of this guy that I haven't shared for whatever reason, is hiding. I tell him I don't know, he says he knows I'm lying, complete with that awful accent he feels the need to type out for some reason. I think my 13est 13et is to try and find the stupid adorable 13lueblood 13efore he does. Hopefully the Shine doesn't decide to fuck me over, 13ut I think I might have a shot at it.
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Post by casualUcalegon on Oct 3, 2012 9:28:06 GMT -5
[Warning]
A blUeblood spooked by a simple pale confession? Now I've seen everything.
TrUst Ur Aspect. Don't think aboUt it screwing U over. Light's all aboUt lUck, not misfortUne. What are the Aspects of the blUeblood and the seadweller?
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Post by overwroughtStenographer on Oct 4, 2012 1:04:41 GMT -5
Seadweller's a Rogue of 13lood, 13lueblood's a Page of Might. He just trolled me pretending like nothing happened, 13ut of course he was evasive when I asked him if he wanted to meet anywhere. I think he might actually 13e scared of pale feelings, which if it's true is so pitiful it kinda makes my 13loodpusher ache.
...Looking 13ack on this thread I've 13een getting pretty maudlin, this is going to 13e pretty embarrassing if it turns out to have 13een one giant misunderstanding. 12eads like something out of those shitty palemance novels I used to 13urn for warmth.
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Post by casualUcalegon on Oct 5, 2012 10:07:26 GMT -5
Do keep Us Updated if anything happens.
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Post by overwroughtStenographer on Oct 9, 2012 1:48:22 GMT -5
Ok I tracked him down on his land, when he 12ealized I knew where he was he tried to make excuses and 12un 13ut I shooshed him and
Well let's just say that was a few days ago and since then I've found his 13ackrubs to 13e everything I'd hoped for and more. I haven't heard anything out of the seadweller 13ut I can't worry about him right now, I've got a new diamond quadrant to look after.
Everything went a whole lot 13etter than expected so thank you kindly for your help. There's still the whole issue of what happens at the end of the session 13ut I think for once I might just 13e able to not worry about that for a while. Or at least worry less about it. Possibly.
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